Hello,
is it me or am i using too much of my blog's space to talk bout him? HMM.

cos there's not much difference in me writing long posts bout him cos it doesnt help. AT ALL. and yes, im tired & i just wanna get on with life. IM TIRED!! and im done nw.

so life's been quite difficult for me these few days/weeks cos there's been too much happenings. and d'yknow dat, one small lie could tend to lead you to another lie, den to another one which you claimed to b your last, but another lie comes after dat cos of ur trouble handling ur self-control, & .. leading to massive destruction to ur life. well, i've had enough before and sworn to mum not to lie again. but yesterday i did lied a v small lie, but i was caught. :(

the small lie : i told mum i ate my lunch, but she saw my 7/11 sandwiches laying still in the fridge and she xploded on me. she said i was pregnant and didnt wanna eat so much, fear of being BONCH.

.. & i've had enough of her accusing me of being pregnant cos im not, IM NOT!! (although i tend to joke bout it wit nora), im not!

and guess wat, i received a testimonial (friendster) from my longtime-nvr-see gf, Dian, and she told me she missed me & asked me to contact her asap. so had nth to do, asked her bout her & papa (fufumi). she told me they broke up ard less den a mth ago. ok, this was DISHEARTENING. so nw im a wat, anak yatim ah? wah great, just bcos of a stupid fight and they broke off after a 6 mths rship together? how come they cant go through this one in a million fight together, just like any other fights they had before? and nw, they choose to part.

BECAUSE THIS IS V DISTURBING, i must say im scared for myself & my own rship.

but i'll try my best to just keep going on. but if its time to really let go, then i should. i must keep repeating this to myself in my head : 'every good thing comes to an end.' and i can nvr deny this quote. it poses a strong sense of comparison on me.

but i swear i'll nvr regret with wat i hav now.