why is everybody different? why must they change their attitudes? why must they always say dat im the one who's changing myself negatively? why are they alw blaming me for evrything? why must they b so mean to leave me foolish, star-strucked in front of my fone? why must all this stupid things happen in the first place? ahh, why am i so stupid to just go with the flow?
im sick of evrything dats happening around me. i fall sick for nth, and my mum thinks dat im pregnant just cos i puked so much after eating. how did dat thinking even went to her head? but nevermind, i dun blame her cos guess wat, im a stupid daughter. i dun deserve watever i hav now. im so foolish to treat my parents like dat, but i still got wat i want. i know, dats like fucking unfair to them but they dun hav the heart to NOT giv me wat i want. cos yeah, they love me, i know dat, who doesnt know? but the thing is, i dun know whether i'd b able to repay them wat they hav given me all along. i wanna treat them like how they treat me all this while.
but how to? if everyone in the family keeps on making me look like some stupid bad kid dat they wanna avoid. they look like..they dun wanna admit dat im their kid, the one they..made.
this is just one problem, but im making it look big. but dis problem means a whole lot to me. please let me be me for once.
