Monday, December 04, 2006
yo im back.okay life's been freakin fun two days back. passed the customs on early saturday morning, and straight away called abg alee and abg ashraf up. met them at Carrefour and ate there. then went to SMART and pierced another hole in the middle of my ear. i'll upload a picture of my ear to let people know wat i mean. hahahaha. abg eman was the last among the rest to pierce his first earhole. walked and walked around, and being the only girl there, i was bullied :( boos. it's okay, they're freaks. reached our two-day 'home' at Desa Perwira and found my little cousin there. he keep on wanting me to carry him, act cute la shit. hahh. anyway, i did carry him in the end. but the experience was badddd. he love spitting at us, stepping on our bodies when we're still sleepin and slappin our faces! grr!den went into the room and they lit their cigs. iskandar (the small, naughty cousin) was in the room too. he wanted to smoke too, so they held the cig, and he sucked in and breathed out the smoke. den! he wanted more, wat a young asshole. hahaha. den after that went to watch Step Up with them, while playin poker cards. hahaha, funny la. den the next day, went to the bdae party at Ros Merah, and so many people were there, even some hot Mat Johor guys. nyahaha.den after eating and all, went to walk around the quiet roads. it really did eased my mind. they sat down bside this longkang, and smoked. den abg alee's two friends came with their motor. den they made friends with us and sat down and smoked too. den i asked abg ashraf whether he could ride a motor, den he said yeah. den i asked him to bring me around the roads, i wanna try. den he said that he's scared to bring ME on the motor. wuekkkkkkkkk. den i asked abg alee, but he said the same thing. den he asked me to ask his friend. but i didnt want to. den he asked for me, den he said okay. but before i went up the motor, that guy whispered to me, to hold him tight. i accidentally screamed, TIGHT? hahaha. wat for hold him? its an empty and wide road la please. so i decided not to take the ride anymore.that night, Ashraf! missed call me. i was so happy, i thought he forgot bout me. yayyy. den Iqbal called me up, but i didnt answer. i remembered wat Ashraf! told me. i have to listen to wat he say. for my own good and his. right dear?the last night was spent at a club in Johor. didnt wanna go at first, but they ALL forced along. so i had no choice but to follow them, but promised myself not to do anythin stupid. so over there, they smoked sisha den smoked their cigs, and abg alee and abg azim drank. i just sat there and enjoyed the laugh and the music. the music's great la ok! (: spent hours there, and walked home at 3 mornin. it was weird, cos two people were drunk and we werent used to it. me and abg ashraf held abg azim and my brother and aliff held abg alee. they were in total drunkness. muttered stupid stuffs, and abg azim kept on swearing that he'd marry the girl at the phone shop at Carrefour. umm okay? hahahahhhh. we were like laughing our asses off till we reached home and lay them on the bed. everyone was asleep by then, and he four of us played poker cards. aliff wanted to torn at first, but through the middle of the game, his eyes kept on growin smaller. so everyone slept after just one game. woahhhh, wat a nite.den in the morning, everyone woke up by force from granny. she kept reminding us not to be late cos she fear that the causeway'd get jammed in the afternoon. but still, we could only manage to wake up at 1+ hahaha. and den everyone took a bath and went to eat at Komtar before we go back to spore. hugged and said bye to abg alee and abg ashraf and went off. its just two days and it was total madness ok! i couldnt imagine how the 18th trip would be like. its gonna b a one-week full of madness.reached spore, and msg-ed syukBF and told him that im back and his chewin gums are with me. but he didnt reply :( den reached home, he told me that he cant msg me. i said its okay, and promised to pass him his chewin gums once i meet him. hahah. passed the customs, and straight away gave Ashraf! a call. gave each other a kiss and hung up. reached home and went online. chatted with akimBABE. yeahhhh.yesterday nite was kinda hurtful :( msg-ed him twice and he didnt reply. den called him up and he said he was at Esplanade with his friends. den he whispered, 'i call u back wen i reach home k?' den i just hung up. the way he whispered and the way he really wanted to put down the fone really stinged my heart. like there was some other people there. msg-ed him and told him that i dun want him to call me dat nite. den he didnt reply. went to watch Hikmah with watery eyes and after that, went straight to sleep. woke up in the middle of the nite, kept on coughing and eventually led me running to the toilet. and i puked. ergh. that was the most disgustin feeling i'd ever wanted to feel. den after quality time in the toilet, went back to bed, and i couldnt sleep. thinkin bout him :( so called him up and we talked for only awhile. he kept on saying that he's havin a small headache. so i told him to just hang up the fone, and we'll talk next tyme. and he agreed, hmphff. and sumthing else bad happened today :( msg-ed him twice this morning and he didnt reply again. ergh. shitness la. den called him up and he asnwered, den he asked me wats with the msg. den i said, nth. den i said, i wanted to hang up, and i did. den he msg-ed me, 'wats wit u? can u stop thinkin negative? i stil luv u.' im feelin bad now, i tink i have not been a good girl by his side. i think i really did change. and despite all the efforts of gettin back to normal, i dun tink its workin out, really. :( only he can change me, i guess. hope he'd b patient. i really love him. just scared of losin him, thats all.will you let me,let me love you?
