Friday, December 01, 2006
omfg la.im feelin so depressed,why must we always quarrell for no reason? i hope this wont be an end to our relationship. its been two months plus i've known him. i've known him well enough to make myself realise that he is the one for me. i'd do anythin to convince him that a special part of my heart is reserved especially for him, for him to make it shine brighter and to make me live the rest of my life with a smile on my face and with him beside me. my life is now officially all about him. =/i know i've changed into a stupid negative-thinkin girl. i wish i could stop all that. i wanna be the girl he liked last time, the girl who was just being herself. he told me i change abit. well i thought about it. it's not that i changed, its just because i admit that i did some stupid stuffs, but i didnt know that it would let people's impressions about me change in a blink of an eye? okay, maybe i did changed abit, just a tiny little bit. but who freakin cares? i dun think anyone does. does he?well, i guess i'll have to answer that myself den. :( why oh why didnt you reply my message? its sent at 16:45. and now's 5:39. heck, it's been almost an hour since i've waited for your reply. i looked like a stupid stupid fool. my faith is gone, all of it, really :( i dun know who to turn to now. and julie, thanks for everything. thanks for bringing my strength back, yeah i've gotta b strong. he really is one of a kind, and i hope that he'll b mine forever ever. and whatever happens, i'll have to let the truth go. dian, you're back from camp. yessssa! missed you. and its nice to finally hear from you after a while (: you're one of the best girlfrennnns i could ever have. you shower my world with all the love i need from a goodie friend, lovin you to bits dear.syuk, you're the best boi-frennn i could ever have, (nvr could b compared to Ashraf) ! you listened to all my problems, you teach me all kinds of stupid but yet cute words that could never b found in the dictionary. but perhaps in mine, yeah. you cheered me up and make this world a much happier one for me. i've never regretted havin you around. you are a blessing for me.akim, my special babe! oh goshhhh. its just been another one of those effing boring days, and suddenly you showed up on msn! thank God, you saved me from total boredom. hahah. seems like i've just known you for one day, but it felt like we've known each other for so long. we joked bout almost everything, right babe? you mat rock. eh no, you rocker. no mats for you eh? keep on rockin my life, people!all this special people entertained me and made me happy today, that i just couldnt help it but write bout them here! i would have been doing nothing xcept lay on the bed and groaning, if its not for them. that's why i'll b missing them when i go for tomorrow. boohoo. :( but cant wait till i cum back spore. and please baby, please reply soon. dun tick the time awayyyy.and boy,you gotta be mine.
