Tuesday, September 26, 2006
"i lost it all when i said goodbye to you,
but deep down i knew it was something i had to do.
it's true that im still in love with you,
but what else could i do after all the stress i went through?
everyone hated that we were together,
but somehow i felt it would last forever.
they played with my last nerve,
and that was something i didn't deserve.
you said that there was nothing that you could do,
so goodbye was all that i could say to you.
it was not something that i wanted to do,
because i honestly meant it when i said that i loved you."
time flies by so fast, i didn't really made use of it fully.
sometimes when i sit beside my bed, i think of what better things i could do if i hadn't met you.
i figured out that there was alot of things i could rather do.
its just that i didn't noticed.
but i guess now, i'm much more matured in my thinking & im now trying like hell to concentrate on my streaming and at least make my parents happy.
they mean the world to me :D
plus my friends, too.
i was always lonely, until they came.
i can never live, without them.
and so whatever that makes them happy, makes me happy too.
yes, including You too.
You're happy now, i can tell, and i'm happy that you're happy.
and finally found someone You could be serious with.
i hope You won't play around with any other people's feelings ey?
i miss You (sighs) ..
when can i ever share those happy hours together with You again?
impossible, i know.
but that's what i've been dying for all this while.
to be with You, to let You make me happy like You used too.
all this may have been a wild fairytale altogether, but i'd really like that.
hmm.. i don't know when i'm gonna stop blabbing about this stupid stuff.
but it seems like everyday, different stuffs would attack my mind.
and i'll have to write about it again.
how miserable could life get?
with my dear diary by my side everytime, i guess it's so much easier to let you fade away from my mind.
hmm.. HADAAAAAAY !
he won, yeaaahness.
hahaha, he's so cute lerh.
and Taufik's getting charming day by day.
woohooozz! x DD
hope to study more these few days!
exams on the 2nd.
cheer myself up & get ready to study.
good luck, Dian.
