Friday, September 22, 2006
selamat (advanced) berpuasa semua! (xkekeke. hari rayer's coming soon, can't wait for the day when all cousins meet.KL + SINGAPORE + JOHOR = MADNESS !nyehehee.. can't wait, can't wait!but although i'm smiling away at home, my heart's still burning.still burning with love, the day he started to say I LOVE YOU.is the day it started burning with emotions.but now, you stopped.how could you?i don't expect it to last really, but how fast could it end?omfg, everytime i post something, he HAS to be part of it.why can't i just post about something, not including him inside?i know, i've experienced the pain so many times.but i still don't get it!when will i stop trusting guys?even if i have friends by my side when i'm down, he's the one i really hope to comfort me with those sweet words.well, at least one more time & that'd be it.i'm effing stressed thinking about all this nonsense, living my life day by day, knowing it's impossible to happen again.why, am i praying so hard to get you on the phone with me for f*cking hours again?what was the mistake i've done that made you change your mind?why do you have to keep your answer within you for so long, & let me suffer here, far away from you, thinking that you'd still call me one day.kept on convincing myself that you'll come back to me is just so stupid.for once, i wish that every guy i know will get off my back for once.please!i'm tired of life & its sweet meaning.i'm sick of you & your lies.just get lost, everyone!i don't need a guy, come on.i just need someone to stand by me.& who'd always be there for me when i'm in need.that way, my heart won't be broken easily, just because there's always someone who'd heal it immediately.and with this i'd like to give my heartful thanks to Nurul & Nazirah ..- for being there for me in the meantime. :D& making me realise that i don't need you.i just don't.
