Friday, September 22, 2006
you were the one who said you'd be there with me in ups & downs of life.you were the one who told me that you'd be there to love me, when somebody else stopped.you were the one who promised me, that you'd wipe away the tears i shed in the past.but you were the same person who lied to me .. when you said that i'm everything to you.you lied when you said that you cared.today was a sucker for me, except that its doubled the suckkkk!have to pay attention in class (in case).today, studied about habitats & community thingy in science.i was like arranging myself in a position, ready & set to sleep against this wall.but then, abby was shouted when she was in her dreamland.so i decided to keep myself awake for the rest of the lesson.but my mind wasn't on the lesson, or the slideshow!i was thinking, why am i so nice?why am i so soft-hearted to stupid people? i'm nice, while you're dishonest.i can only manage to be patient & pray hard that everything will be fine like before.but something's can't be healed... or maybe it can, but it'd take such a long time to do it.i'm confused with what i'm feeling now.during science class, i tried to sort out my feelings, but couldn't.how is he feeling about me right now?the last tyme, he told me he liked me.and the last tyme, i told him i liked him.but now, it's as if we were very good friends.and nothing happened between us.i need the answer as soon as possible.as mama said, it takes two hands to clap!in this case, i desperately need his to let me know the answer.i really don't wish for my life to be as complicating as this.but mama told me to be patient, papa told me to be kind.they said, i'd be a better a person by then.so let's see how it turns out when i update next tyme.i bet by then, i'd get bad news & bad luck would strike me again.watch out for me!i can't believe i still can joke about this.but worst, i can't believe he turned out like this.
